Shew, 2023 was certainly filled with challenges, heartache, love, excitement, growth, expansion, and joy, exhaustion, laughter, and everything in between… I’ve certainly taken a lot of time to reflect on everything that I have gained and can walk into the new year doing more of an doing less of… and it’s got me thinking, am I living my version of success?
The more time I spend on this planet within this consciousness, the more I realize that success to me means living in authentic alignment with my truest expression and honoring each version of myself as it emerges so that it can experience itself to its fullest expression. This takes on many different forms which may sometimes confuse people because…
Sometimes I am seen guiding people through healing transformative processes, these are deeply spiritual and filled with life-changing energy, not only for the participants that I work with, but for me as well. And the perception is that I am myself a deep, spiritual person, and a healer… which I am 🪄
Sometimes I am seen living the high life, traveling the world, experiencing new exotic places, luxury getaways, flaunting a bikini on a boat, or hiking, deep into a mystical cave, at a massive party or festival, dancing to the early hours of the morning, and the perception is that I am a “party animal”, or an “influencer” and adventurer… which I am as well…
Sometimes I just disappear from social media and then when I emerge, I am seen on a solo mission, baking my body in the sun or walking on the beach, water crashing over my feet, or swimming in the wild waves, and the perception is that I am a lone wolf… which I also am…
Sometimes I am seen surrounded by friends and family, laughing, being social, and the perception is that I am out and about all the time I’m surrounded by people, 24/7… well I’m definitely not surrounded by people 24/7, not physically anyway, but energetically I am so held by an incredible community of love-filled, amazing individuals… so I guess this is true too…
And sometimes I am seen on my bedroom floor, sharing, insights or thoughts that help both friends and strangers, feel less alone on the journey, and the perception is that I am someone who brings insight or wisdom to others… and I embrace this to be true too…
I have many more examples of things that you see me do, and be, and sometimes this leaves people feeling a bit, confused, questioning, which version is the truest version of me, when the reality is that I am all of these things. They are all me and I am all of them.
I am an introverted extrovert who deeply values both relationships and solitude. I love spending time with people, and each relationship brings a different version of me to the forefront that I get to experience. Each moment of this life gives me the opportunity to express a different aspect of the soul that lives within this extraordinary body. This does not mean I do not know who I am, this also does not mean that I am disingenuous in any of these circumstances, what it does mean, is that I am multi-faceted. It means that I have embraced the concept that I am not a drop in the Ocean, but that I am truly the entire ocean in a drop and that when I walk into a room or into a situation or into someone’s life, I can experience myself being something very specific to that person, that situation, and it’s beautiful and its uniqueness. And also, no matter what situation I find myself in I always maintain my core. At my core, I am love. At my core it doesn’t matter where I go or what I do I bring love care, compassion, fun, stillness, humor, joy, and within a second, I can hold the deepest of spaces for transformation and minutes later, I can be running through the forest naked and going for a skinny-dip and shrieking with delight. I can be a Wildling that loves being naked, mischievous, and free and I am also the sage, the teacher, healer, and spiritual guide.
Why can I be all of these things? Because I am uniquely me. I will never fit into a box. And don’t try and put me in your box, what do you think I should be because I refuse to fit into anyone else’s box that has been created for me. I release the need to live up to what everyone else wants of me, I realize that not everyone loves a peach, and I’m OK to remain being "peachy" and resonate with the people that do. This allows me space to rather than trying to make everyone else happy, to focus on embracing my bliss and accepting that, that bliss will attract my tribe and I send happiness and love and light and blessings to those who are not in my tribe, and I send happiness and love and light and blessings to my tribe and commit to supporting and loving and cherishing those them - no judgment, only love and acceptance either way for everyone.
And as I sit here on the final day of 2023, with my nervous system, the calmest, it’s ever been, surrounded by beauty on a farm in the middle of a forest, ready to spend the evening with three fantastic people, sipping on a glass of champagne and laughing my way into 2024. I embrace that this is my version of success. Living life on my own terms. Being able to embrace every version of me that emerges, the sage, the sexy beach bum, the lone wolf, the socialite, the party animal, the solitude empress, every version that longs to be expressed and experienced.
I embrace that part of me that chooses me. That no longer self-absorbons, that is guided by my truth. Because I know in my heart, that my truth will always be for the highest good of all. I know my truth comes from a place of pure, unconditional love, and by following my truth, I will not only serve myself in the best way I can, but I will serve all those around me too. So in 2024, now more than ever, I will listen to my gut, I will self-abandon less, and I will allow each version of myself to be fully expressed with joy.
Why is this so important? Because now more than ever I realize that it is when I do self-abandon, when I don’t trust my gut that things really get hard… There were so many things that didn’t turn out the way that I thought they would, so many curveballs thrown my way, and yet I can see exactly why the universe sent them to me… I can truly embrace the gifts, and I know that this is a reminder, a gentle shove, to be true to myself, to listen to my gut, because my gut will never lie to me, and it will always guide me in the right direction. So my Darling gut, I’m listening! I hear you loud and clear, and I trust you no more than ever ☺️
And with that my lovelies, I’m ending this year with a calm nervous system, with contentment and love in my heart. My being is filled with gratitude for all of the expansion that I have experienced this year, for all of the blessings that I have received, all of the experiences, and all of the beautiful people that have come into my life, that stay in my life, that will still be in my life and all that are you to come into my life. I end the year with excitement and curiosity at what lies ahead, feeling full and complete trust that I am held, guided, protected,
and directed, and the best is yet to come.
These are my reflections at the end of 2023, thank you to each, and every person that has played a part in my expansion, and creating lifelong memories, you really are the beautiful flowers in the garden of my life that make my world so fucking beautiful 😍 I look forward to supporting you, on your journey back to your authentic self, I look forward to celebrating your successes and holding space through your challenges and planting seeds for dreams that will inevitably come true in a way that astonishes your wildest imagination - to shouting loudly HELL YEAR here’s to YOU!
Thank you for reading. Thank you for your ongoing support and love. Thank you for constantly showing up And being the beautiful bright light that you are in this world. You are valued. You are seen. And I send many magnificent blessings, can’t wait to see you are 2024 has in store for you and me 😍 major shift, lying ahead, coupled with unfathomable beauty ❤️
Big love to you all
